Dont you hate it when the weather starts to reflect your every mood... and for the past couple of days it has been raining, thundering, windy, gloomy, and just plain damn miserable! And its especially difficult when you try to do something good for the community, like flag day for instance. No-one feels generous or in a good mood when theres a friggin storm on and they cant be bothered to put downt their umbrella, raincoat and other bags just to get out a measely $2 to put in those lil bags we carry around. So seeing as the weather is crap it seems to reflect on moods. And when people dont donate you feel like shit and like its not worth doing, and you just give up and go home. so on a really bad day... if your mind feels like a thunderstorm, do you just get pissy, pack up, quit life and go home? or do you wait it out, and wait for the sunshine to appear through the dark thunderstorm?

im sick of waiting.

im sick of waiting for something that appears like it will never come my way. for something that only happens to those few lucky people. im sick of waiting for you. im sick of crying over you. im sick of getting so upset because you didnt say hi, or just didnt notice i was there.

you said forever, but i guess i was the forever you forgot.

so now ive learned to love the rain, the thunder, the lightning... the darkess. ill be living in it for a while and seeing as the rain is so symbolic of everything i know its the easiest thing to reflect me at the moment. rain= hides tears. rain=washing away hidden emotions that the wind carries with it. rain=so wet you can feel it and feel alive, and know your not dead, not yet. rain= the beginning of a new tomorrow.

let the rain fall down. let it fall on me and wash away my sanity and fears. let me show you the tears that scream inside me that can only be disguised in the rain.

xox kat

The ones you love are worth more time than the ones you hate.

Do you ever wake up in the morning being unable to stand because you are so weak, lightheaded and tired? Do you ever lie in your bed at night staring at the ceiling praying that you could just fall alseep? Do you constantly tell yourself that everything will be okay in the end even though you are not sure what the future actually holds for you? Do you ever feel so scared inside but act as if you are fine because you think that if you act fine everything might just be fine... and you are only as happy as you want to be? Do you ever try to put yourself in some-one elses "shoes"? Do you ever really understand what someone is saying to you or do you just sit there and nod, hoping that they will shutup and get to the point? Do you ever listen? Do you try to be nice to everything that walks even if you hate it so much that you wana turn its insides into a handbag? Are you actually happy or do you think this is just the game of life that God wishes to force upon us?

xox Kat